Sunday, September 14, 2008

Reflection

Wow. One year ago tomorrow my FIL passed away. I still can't believe it. It was such a surprise when he fell and then when they found the cancer. It was only a month from his fall until his death. So much changed in that short. . . and long. . .month! I really had not fully processed my mothers death, actually I am not really sure if I have now, almost 2 years later!

I still feel tremendously guilty about starting to work at the school last year. It seems like right after I started the you know what hit the fan! I mean literally, I got the call about his fall while I was at the first staff meeting for the school. I still seem to be filled with fear when I think about it. I am very reluctant to actually take another job too for fear something similar will happen. Not that I am just over-run with a lot of "extra" free time or anything. I am over-run with a LOT of bills though. . .amazing how everyone wants their money at the same time. . .lol!

I am sure that I need to talk to someone and try to move past this, but I just don't have the desire or the time!

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Apparently I am SASSY!

Apparently I am Sassy now that I got my hair cut! Who knew? I am just glad to not have to take care of that head of hair anymore!

Today was a pretty good day - I actually got some things accomplished. PTA meeting tonight went pretty well too. Now I have to plan the agenda for Thursdays meeting for the other school! And figure out what I am going to make as a treat for the meeting. Maybe my homemade oatmeal cookies- those could be made ahead of time and will still be good.

There is still a LOT I need to do around here and at the schools too though. Never seems like there is enough time to do it all. I am busy busy busy. Now if I could only find a way to still do all of this and get paid! Maybe one of these days!

I found out that one of my fellow PTA board members and friend is going to move to California at the end of the school year. Her husband is in the Army and is being deployed to Iraq in about a month. They decided to not move until school was out for their kids- so they could finish the year at least. I know she is going to have a hard time with her husband being depolyed and still trying to take care of her family. She has also had a bad year health wise too. I will have to do what I can to help her and her family cope with the changes they are facing.

Well, time for me to do some PTA stuff before I check the WOOT and then go to bed.

I need to blog more. . .

Maybe now that I have a laptop I should blog more. I will try. . .

Well, I have been feeling pretty crappy lately. Migraines, aches, stomach stuff. YUCK!! I need to try to figure out what the heck is going on. But I seem to be too busy to do that! UGH!

today one of my neighbors brought home my youngest son and told me that he was seen with a rock in his hand at an abandoned house in the neighborhood and that there had been lots of kids vandalizing stuff recently around there. WHAT! He is 7! Boy is he in MAJOR trouble! He says he did not throw any rocks, that his friend "knocked" it out of his hand. HMM, not really buying that. Not buying that he the one doing all the vandalizing either! He will be under lock and key for awhile, I can tell you that!

I have a lot of stuff to do around the house and at both schools that I volunteer at. Tomorrow I think I will focus on the house, especially folding and putting away the baskets of clothes in my room as well as getting my old regular computer hooked back up so the printer can be used. The back up battery went haywire or something.

I can't believe that it has been a year almost since Wally died. It seems so long ago. And my mom died a few months before that. I wish I could just talk to her again, and I know that my sister would LOVE that too. she is having her first baby soon.